This week, I leave my cool, little studio in South Austin. We move my few items to the North for Hope to attend a high school that offers amazing pre-college courses in addition to her needed Literature, Orchestra and Drill Team (Dance Team) electives.
Most of me doesn't want to leave. Besides enjoying a kick-ass commute and being able to walk to so many incredible places, I truly have enjoyed my time living here.
The neighbors have been terrific. The laundry facilities literally right next door to me have been truly appreciated. The security has been appreciated. The palm tree... the word LOVE doesn't even describe.
Like my house in Peoria, I need to focus on what is yet to come rather than what I am leaving behind.
Pros and cons exist with every situation- and this is just another. Even without a family, I know that this studio apartment wouldn't be my "dream home." I don't ever want to own another 3-bedroom home, but I know this isn't my end-all, be-all address either.
The truth is - I don't know what I want.
That used to frighten me. Now, it empowers me. I actually like not knowing what I want. Yet - I love knowing what I do not want.
Confused yet??
I am in love with the possibilities. And our world is full of them. If we can just take a teensy step out of "comfort," we are introduced to such an incredible world. And when fear hits us, which that bitch always will - that is our test. Either we retract and "go home." Or we find our courage and step up to the challenge.
I love living in Austin. I miss my friends and my loves more than anything. I have relationships in Central Illinois that will never be replaced. Honestly, I don't want replacements. I will carry that love and happiness with me for as long as I exist. But I am enamored with the energy and the people of this city and state who I have been blessed to meet already. -It's only been two months!
While the next move is a bit "uncomfortable," I am already prepared that nothing is permanent... especially with a 10-month lease!
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